we run because we want to be chased.

We laughed and laughed, together and separately, out loud and silently, we were determined to ignore whatever needed to be ignored, to build a new world from nothing if nothing in our world could be salvaged, it was one of the best days of my life, a day during which I lived my life and didn’t think about my life at all.

but you know, ultimately i have to think about my life. how my life sucks sometimes because of some things that i have no control of. because of some decisions that were made and will always be made without approval, without consideration. because ultimately, i'm supposed to control my own life but everyone knows that it is quite impossible to take full control of it.

and i know, i still have to think about my life. i can't ignore what needs to be ignored. and a new world cannot be built from nothing in a world that cannot be salvaged.